SONEJI'S DOMAIN.

For the past week or two I've been talking regularly to my friends Arturo and Gaby from Matamoros. Matamoros is my home town, in 1975 my mom and Satan spawned me into this shitbowl. Anyway, talking to them has made me homesick. For the fist time since I moved to Charlotte in 1999 I got homesick. I have been thinking and reminiscing of the places I used to hang out in like Plaza Fiesta which is a little mall there and mi old neighborhood. I remember some of my old friends and the way I used to feel around them and just being in Mexico growing up. It's a good feeling. I want to go back. I want to go as soon as possible because I want all my family in Matamoros to meet the babies. I was thinking I could plan a trip after the other baby is born. Oh, I think we finally agreed on a name for the new baby. I think we're going to name her Larissa. It's cool, I like it.

Yesterday I had three panic attacks. I had one after work on my way to my mom's house to pick up the baby. Then I had two later that night when I was sitting at home with Felicia and the baby. They're weird, they're almost like flashbacks to a dream sequence I had at one point. The face of familiar strangers who take the place of my loved ones seem to be in the flashbacks rather than my loved ones. Usually, a sense of extreme fear or panic takes over and it lasts well after the flashback ends. Kinda like aftershocks...I can feel them running through my body....it's odd. Also, I can almost sense them coming before they hit. It's a sense of impending doom or a sense of danger engulfs my body and my mind. Well, I haven't had any since last night and they are becoming less and less frequent so I'm not worried.

Today at around 7:30 pm we received an e-mail about our holiday schedule. Man, it kicks ass, I found out I wasn't gonna work during the holidays. The day's we get off are as follow:

Thanksgiving Day- November 27, 2003
Day after Thanksgiving- November 28, 2003
Christmas Eve- December 24, 2003
Christmas Day- December 25, 2003
Day after Christmas- December 26, 2003
New Years Eve- December 31, 2003
New Year's Day- January 1, 2004

I don't think I've ever worked for a company that allows us to have all these days off during the holidays. HOORAY FOR GCS!!!!!! I am really gonna enjoy these holidays. I am already looking forward to them. The first year I spend with my new family. Everything is going to be soooo cool. If anyone wants to get me presents I will gladly accept them..hehehe

Finally, I found a great band today on the internet. Well, great if you're into metal or hardcore or even punk. They're called The Vulgaras and they rock like hell. Their sound is raw and loud but it flows very nicely. Velocity Chyaldd, the lead singer has an awesome voice. They are very vulgar and they seem to be hardcore into S&M and porn. They perform naked with shit smeared all over there (not literally shit, but something gooey). They even have a transexual member! Now, that's freaking different right there!!!! You should check them out...



Well, I guess that's all for tonight, I'm going home to have me a few Pete's and get ready for tomorrow. I can't believe it's Wednesday, this week is going by kinda fast.