Dyane just walked in a few minutes ago. I went and asked her about the report and guess what?! MY FUCKING SUSPICIONS WERE CORRECT!!!!
She fucking made it up to get back at me....Oh, trust me! IT IS FUCKING ON! She will regret ever crossing me....LOL! I will prank her until she's begging for mercy.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Just like the Friday Five, I found the Wednesday Whatevers
Wednesday Whatevers
1. Who do you feel pity for, and why?
I pity da fool! Abused and neglected children and neglected and abused elderly people. Especially infants.
2. Who do many others feel sorry for, but you don't and why?
Self centered, drug addicted or nervously broke down celebrities.
3. What is the worst thing you have ever done to somebody?
viciously hurt them in retaliation for something they did to me even if their actions were unintentional. (I'm not giving specifics)
Wednesday Whatevers
1. Who do you feel pity for, and why?
I pity da fool! Abused and neglected children and neglected and abused elderly people. Especially infants.
2. Who do many others feel sorry for, but you don't and why?
Self centered, drug addicted or nervously broke down celebrities.
3. What is the worst thing you have ever done to somebody?
viciously hurt them in retaliation for something they did to me even if their actions were unintentional. (I'm not giving specifics)
Man, I went to sleep really late last night and now I feel like shit.
Anyway, I told Takesha I would let her know last night over the messenger system about the report that was made against me on Friday. But I didn't cuz I didn't see her online so when I walked in to work today, we started talking about it. Well, she's been working here longer than I have and has this program in her computer where she can see all the reports made on a certain program (PROGRAMS ARE HOW THE COMPANIES THAT SUBCONTRACT US RECEIVE THEIR REPORTS, EACH COMPANY HAS THEIR OWN PROGRAM THROUGH WHICH WE SUBMIT THE REPORTS OF UNETHICAL BEHAVIOR WE RECEIVE. WE ARE OUR OWN CLIENT, SO EMPLOYEES WHO WANT TO COMPLAINT OR REPORT UNETHICAL BEHAVIOR ABOUT OUR MANAGEMENT OR EMPLOYEES HAVE TO CALL IN LIKE ANY OTHER REGULAR PERSON). Well we found out that no reports have been filed for Global (my company) in the past month. So we found that as very odd... Then I started thinking about it more and more.... Suddenly, I remembered that on Monday, Brian, our supervisor took the newer people to take their pictures. Let me explain..hehe...Dyane is a rather new employee, she's been here a few months. When we get new employees we take their picture and plaster them on this "Who's Who" type board in the breakroom, pretty kindergarten stuff if you ask me...but hey, whatever tweaks their corporate nipples... Dyane did not want to take the picture. When Brian gathered them all, and escorted them to the door to go take their picture, Dyane hid in her cubicle which is almost right next to mine. I can well see over the cubicles cuz I'm 6'2" so I peeked over to see what was going on. I saw Brian on the door waiting for Dyane and Dyane hiding in her cubicle. I, being the asshole that I am, said outloud "Hey, don't forget Dyane!" so she got out of her cube and went took her picture.
Later we joked about it, she said she ought to kick my ass...LOL. So, Friday she didn't mention the report against me, Monday she didn't either...then, on Tuesday all of a sudden she's very serious and has to talk to me. Tells me about the report. Well, now I am thinking...wait a second, we didn't find any reports made about Global employee's for well over a month. She swears up and down that she submitted the report and there's no way it could have just disappeared. So, now I'm thinking she made the whole thing up to get back at me for calling her name on Monday about the picture. She would do something like that to get back at me. Otherwise, why would she wait until Tuesday to let me know about the report? Oh, but trust me, when she gets here, I will get to the bottom of this...hehe..... If she did this to get me back, OH NO! She just fucked with the wrong person... I AM THE KING OF PRANKS!!! She's not gonna out do me!!!! LOL
Ok, those are my suspisions...I will let you know how things develop later.
Anyway, I told Takesha I would let her know last night over the messenger system about the report that was made against me on Friday. But I didn't cuz I didn't see her online so when I walked in to work today, we started talking about it. Well, she's been working here longer than I have and has this program in her computer where she can see all the reports made on a certain program (PROGRAMS ARE HOW THE COMPANIES THAT SUBCONTRACT US RECEIVE THEIR REPORTS, EACH COMPANY HAS THEIR OWN PROGRAM THROUGH WHICH WE SUBMIT THE REPORTS OF UNETHICAL BEHAVIOR WE RECEIVE. WE ARE OUR OWN CLIENT, SO EMPLOYEES WHO WANT TO COMPLAINT OR REPORT UNETHICAL BEHAVIOR ABOUT OUR MANAGEMENT OR EMPLOYEES HAVE TO CALL IN LIKE ANY OTHER REGULAR PERSON). Well we found out that no reports have been filed for Global (my company) in the past month. So we found that as very odd... Then I started thinking about it more and more.... Suddenly, I remembered that on Monday, Brian, our supervisor took the newer people to take their pictures. Let me explain..hehe...Dyane is a rather new employee, she's been here a few months. When we get new employees we take their picture and plaster them on this "Who's Who" type board in the breakroom, pretty kindergarten stuff if you ask me...but hey, whatever tweaks their corporate nipples... Dyane did not want to take the picture. When Brian gathered them all, and escorted them to the door to go take their picture, Dyane hid in her cubicle which is almost right next to mine. I can well see over the cubicles cuz I'm 6'2" so I peeked over to see what was going on. I saw Brian on the door waiting for Dyane and Dyane hiding in her cubicle. I, being the asshole that I am, said outloud "Hey, don't forget Dyane!" so she got out of her cube and went took her picture.
Later we joked about it, she said she ought to kick my ass...LOL. So, Friday she didn't mention the report against me, Monday she didn't either...then, on Tuesday all of a sudden she's very serious and has to talk to me. Tells me about the report. Well, now I am thinking...wait a second, we didn't find any reports made about Global employee's for well over a month. She swears up and down that she submitted the report and there's no way it could have just disappeared. So, now I'm thinking she made the whole thing up to get back at me for calling her name on Monday about the picture. She would do something like that to get back at me. Otherwise, why would she wait until Tuesday to let me know about the report? Oh, but trust me, when she gets here, I will get to the bottom of this...hehe..... If she did this to get me back, OH NO! She just fucked with the wrong person... I AM THE KING OF PRANKS!!! She's not gonna out do me!!!! LOL
Ok, those are my suspisions...I will let you know how things develop later.
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Ok, so yesterday I typed this long ass entry on my blog explaining what I did over the weekend, but when I attempted to publish it the freaking thing froze and I lost all my info. So I am not about to sit here and type that shit all over again. We'll just give a quick run through.
Friday we went to Chili's and then to Wild Wing Cafe. I had a bunch of beer and shots. I don't know what the shots were of, but it was an aqua blue bottle and a very dark liquor..almost black. It tasted like black liquorice and a bit of mint. It did not burn, it went down really smooth. Anyway, I had like 5 of those at Chili's plus tons of beer...then at Wild Wing we had some shots of JD and more beer. Needless to say I was soooo fucked up, I couldn't drive home. One because I was really drunk... and two, because Marin and Gene hid my fucking car keys. Felicia was pissed...sorry baby! LOL
I can't remember what I did Saturday....
Sunday we went to a family reunion on Felicia's Mom's side of the family in Waxhaw, NC (If you're not from around here, YES! that town is as small as it sounds). Everybody was really nice, I met her aunts, uncles and cousins and a few strays....hehe...Everybody welcomed us and made us feel good. AND DUDE! There was sooo much fucking food! They had this green bean casserole that kicked ass.
Monday was pretty uneventful...
Which leads us right up to today... Check this out, so I was talking to one of my co-workers named Dyane. She tells me that on Friday the 21st she got a call about me. I am like what the fuck!? Dyane tells me that some dude called on our ethics like to say that I was looking at pornography on the office's computer. Now, I know that I wasn't looking at porn at work because I do that at home! LOL....anyway, I mean, I know I am not dumb enough to be looking at fucking titties at work. Anway, it really didn't bother me that much at first cuz I knew they could check my computer up and down, in and out and whatever...they won't find the least bit of porn in it. But then I started thinking, who would do that? As far as I know, I have no enemies, I get along with everybody... I treat everybody nice and courteous and professionally. So it began gnawing at me...more and more...then me and Dyane started talking about. We have a very good idea who it is. It's this dude name Craig... Craig is this wanna be socialite, compulsive-liar, GQ reading, shallow, bullshitter, always-need-to-be-the-center-of-attention motherfucker, and nosy, this asshole is fucking nosy...I could be talking to Takesha whispering and he would come near us and blatantly ask us: "What are you guys talking about?" I'm like...MOTHERFUCKER, IF I WANTED YOU TO KNOW I WOULD HAVE CALLED YOU OVER TO OUR LITTLE FUCKING HUDDLE...NOOCH!!!
Anyway, the more we talked we realized that on Friday, Serg emailed me these funny pictures that I forwarded to Takesha and Cindy...two of my coworkers that I really trust. Then later that day, I forwarded them to James, who is this guy who I trained with. I know it wasn't James cuz me and James are really cool, we're both from Mexico, the same age, from the same area of the country and we really trust each other. Then I forwarded the pics to Dyane...when I was asking Dyane if she got the pictures, Craig overheard us laughing and giggling loudly. Of course, his fucking nosy self wanted the know what was up. So I decided to forward the pictures to him. These are the pictures....
[sorry about the quality of the pics, but if you want to see them clearer click here]
Now, do you think that's porn???? I don't think so. But anyway, we still don't know for sure if it's him or not. But we're pretty sure. Nobody else would be capable of something that low and fucked up. This little fucking kid is annoying and nobody likes him. AAARRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! This shit is fucked up. The more I think about it the more I get upset. But I did learn a lesson, I should definitely stop trusting people. I mean really, most people are not worth it. My philosophy was always to trust people and then you learn who they are. Now, fuck that! I am not going to trust anyone until they've fully gained my confidence. Man, people like that should be shot and castrated...hehe...
Well, I really needed to vent. But I have a new mission. I will find out and hunt down like a dog whomever made that fucking report. Fortunately, Dyane told me she changed the name on the report and did not fuck me over. Dyane is cool, I can trust her cuz she has trusted me in the past. So, whomever did it, they're about to taste my Aztec/Wetback wrath....I shall find thee and sacrifice thee to Satan.
Ok, bye.
Friday we went to Chili's and then to Wild Wing Cafe. I had a bunch of beer and shots. I don't know what the shots were of, but it was an aqua blue bottle and a very dark liquor..almost black. It tasted like black liquorice and a bit of mint. It did not burn, it went down really smooth. Anyway, I had like 5 of those at Chili's plus tons of beer...then at Wild Wing we had some shots of JD and more beer. Needless to say I was soooo fucked up, I couldn't drive home. One because I was really drunk... and two, because Marin and Gene hid my fucking car keys. Felicia was pissed...sorry baby! LOL
I can't remember what I did Saturday....
Sunday we went to a family reunion on Felicia's Mom's side of the family in Waxhaw, NC (If you're not from around here, YES! that town is as small as it sounds). Everybody was really nice, I met her aunts, uncles and cousins and a few strays....hehe...Everybody welcomed us and made us feel good. AND DUDE! There was sooo much fucking food! They had this green bean casserole that kicked ass.
Monday was pretty uneventful...
Which leads us right up to today... Check this out, so I was talking to one of my co-workers named Dyane. She tells me that on Friday the 21st she got a call about me. I am like what the fuck!? Dyane tells me that some dude called on our ethics like to say that I was looking at pornography on the office's computer. Now, I know that I wasn't looking at porn at work because I do that at home! LOL....anyway, I mean, I know I am not dumb enough to be looking at fucking titties at work. Anway, it really didn't bother me that much at first cuz I knew they could check my computer up and down, in and out and whatever...they won't find the least bit of porn in it. But then I started thinking, who would do that? As far as I know, I have no enemies, I get along with everybody... I treat everybody nice and courteous and professionally. So it began gnawing at me...more and more...then me and Dyane started talking about. We have a very good idea who it is. It's this dude name Craig... Craig is this wanna be socialite, compulsive-liar, GQ reading, shallow, bullshitter, always-need-to-be-the-center-of-attention motherfucker, and nosy, this asshole is fucking nosy...I could be talking to Takesha whispering and he would come near us and blatantly ask us: "What are you guys talking about?" I'm like...MOTHERFUCKER, IF I WANTED YOU TO KNOW I WOULD HAVE CALLED YOU OVER TO OUR LITTLE FUCKING HUDDLE...NOOCH!!!
Anyway, the more we talked we realized that on Friday, Serg emailed me these funny pictures that I forwarded to Takesha and Cindy...two of my coworkers that I really trust. Then later that day, I forwarded them to James, who is this guy who I trained with. I know it wasn't James cuz me and James are really cool, we're both from Mexico, the same age, from the same area of the country and we really trust each other. Then I forwarded the pics to Dyane...when I was asking Dyane if she got the pictures, Craig overheard us laughing and giggling loudly. Of course, his fucking nosy self wanted the know what was up. So I decided to forward the pictures to him. These are the pictures....
Now, do you think that's porn???? I don't think so. But anyway, we still don't know for sure if it's him or not. But we're pretty sure. Nobody else would be capable of something that low and fucked up. This little fucking kid is annoying and nobody likes him. AAARRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! This shit is fucked up. The more I think about it the more I get upset. But I did learn a lesson, I should definitely stop trusting people. I mean really, most people are not worth it. My philosophy was always to trust people and then you learn who they are. Now, fuck that! I am not going to trust anyone until they've fully gained my confidence. Man, people like that should be shot and castrated...hehe...
Well, I really needed to vent. But I have a new mission. I will find out and hunt down like a dog whomever made that fucking report. Fortunately, Dyane told me she changed the name on the report and did not fuck me over. Dyane is cool, I can trust her cuz she has trusted me in the past. So, whomever did it, they're about to taste my Aztec/Wetback wrath....I shall find thee and sacrifice thee to Satan.
Ok, bye.
Friday, November 21, 2003
Here are today's Friday Five. Enjoy.
1. List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year.
2. List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again.
3. List five things you'd like to learn how to do.
4. List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit).
5. List five things you do that help you relax.
That's it....I might not update tonight cuz we're gonna go out and party like it's 1989.
1. List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year.
- Lose weight (of course)
- find a better job
- mature
- prioritize my life
- conquer the world...Or at least the Fiji islands
2. List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again.
- Ana
- Jason Lara from Seattle
- my cousin Carlos
- Jessica Jones
- and Sayonara from Brownsville/Matamoros
3. List five things you'd like to learn how to do.
- be a computer whiz
- speak Japanese
- manage my time properly
- end world hunger, poverty and abusive corruption
- be a better person all together
4. List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit).
- Travel!!
- pay off all my debts
- start several businesses
- I wouldn't give money to charity, but I would start my own charities
- Party like it's 1999! LOL
5. List five things you do that help you relax.
- Music
- Weed
- TV
- incense (I love it!)
- and probably porn
That's it....I might not update tonight cuz we're gonna go out and party like it's 1989.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Anyway, nothing interesting has happened in the last two days. Just got a bunch of bills that I can't pay...LOL. I did get paid today.!
So, during lunch me and Felicia spoke about being more organized and mature. We need to put more emphasis in our priorities and stop fucking around. She's so right. So, tonight we're going to sit down and come up with some kind of plan or procedure we can assimilate too and get out lives on track.
Well, I guess that is it for now.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
Yesterday I had three panic attacks. I had one after work on my way to my mom's house to pick up the baby. Then I had two later that night when I was sitting at home with Felicia and the baby. They're weird, they're almost like flashbacks to a dream sequence I had at one point. The face of familiar strangers who take the place of my loved ones seem to be in the flashbacks rather than my loved ones. Usually, a sense of extreme fear or panic takes over and it lasts well after the flashback ends. Kinda like aftershocks...I can feel them running through my body....it's odd. Also, I can almost sense them coming before they hit. It's a sense of impending doom or a sense of danger engulfs my body and my mind. Well, I haven't had any since last night and they are becoming less and less frequent so I'm not worried.
Today at around 7:30 pm we received an e-mail about our holiday schedule. Man, it kicks ass, I found out I wasn't gonna work during the holidays. The day's we get off are as follow:
Thanksgiving Day- November 27, 2003
Day after Thanksgiving- November 28, 2003
Christmas Eve- December 24, 2003
Christmas Day- December 25, 2003
Day after Christmas- December 26, 2003
New Years Eve- December 31, 2003
New Year's Day- January 1, 2004
I don't think I've ever worked for a company that allows us to have all these days off during the holidays. HOORAY FOR GCS!!!!!! I am really gonna enjoy these holidays. I am already looking forward to them. The first year I spend with my new family. Everything is going to be soooo cool. If anyone wants to get me presents I will gladly accept them..hehehe
Finally, I found a great band today on the internet. Well, great if you're into metal or hardcore or even punk. They're called The Vulgaras and they rock like hell. Their sound is raw and loud but it flows very nicely. Velocity Chyaldd, the lead singer has an awesome voice. They are very vulgar and they seem to be hardcore into S&M and porn. They perform naked with shit smeared all over there (not literally shit, but something gooey). They even have a transexual member! Now, that's freaking different right there!!!! You should check them out...
Well, I guess that's all for tonight, I'm going home to have me a few Pete's and get ready for tomorrow. I can't believe it's Wednesday, this week is going by kinda fast.
Yeah, yeah, yeah...I know it's not Friday but I forgot to do the The Friday Five on the 14th. So, since it's my blog I can do as I please. And here they go...drumroll please....
1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space.
messy
2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer.
unorthodox and unprepared
3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pastime.
musical, magical and relaxing.
4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day.
monotonous, habitual, repetitive and unhealthy.
5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life.
sage-like, powerful, eternal, ethereal and corrupted.
Ok, that's it...hope this was as insightful and illuminated for you as it was for me....SIKE!
1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space.
messy
2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer.
unorthodox and unprepared
3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pastime.
musical, magical and relaxing.
4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day.
monotonous, habitual, repetitive and unhealthy.
5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life.
sage-like, powerful, eternal, ethereal and corrupted.
Ok, that's it...hope this was as insightful and illuminated for you as it was for me....SIKE!
Monday, November 17, 2003
Man, I don't know why but lately I've not had the desire to type in my blog. It's mostly out of pure laziness though. LOL
Anyway, sometimes I feel Felicia is a bit too attached to me. I am very grateful that she is most of the time. I love having her around me, I love the way she makes me feel and the little thing she does for me that she probably thinks I don't notice but I do. I love everything about her. But from time to time I want to be me... just plain me. Not Javier the husband,(yeah, in case you didn't know that is my name, I don't think I've ever mentioned that here) not Javier the father, not Javier the oldest son, not Javier the anything.... Just me! I want to be able to move around freely and not be confined to our little apartment. But, sometimes I feel Felicia doesn't want that. We got in a bit of an argument over it. Nothing major, but I was pissed on Saturday night. God, I hadn't been that pissed in a while. I think a marriage is the strongest bond between a man and a women. And, when you are married you become one with that person. But at the same time, I don't want to lose my individuality. I don't want to be constantly attached to that person. I have my likes and dislikes, I want to go out and not worry about being considered inattentive or negligent (she didn't say that, that's how she makes me feel sometimes). I feel like I am a bad person and a bad husband. But, I know I am not... I know I am not a bad person and I am not a bad husband. I just wish I had a little more personal space... Wheew...! Had to get that out before I bottled it deep inside and having it erupt with the force of a volcano in 20 years.
Anyway, with that out of the way, this weekend, as every other, went by too fast. Saturday we went to Chili's and The Grad (again). It seems like my life is repeating itself every seven days (Groundhog Day anyone?!). But I was broke. Serg had to pay for everything. I hate it when I have to let him pay for everything or Gene too... I feel like such a leech. Anyway, while we were in the grad these Marlboro people came in with a little lap top type thing and made us fill out a survey. In return, they gave us a cool Zippo lighter. Gene smokes Newports so he didn't get one..hehehe. Serg and I want to take them to that place in Concord Mills Mall to get them engraved with something. I already chose my design...
Check it out!
Sunday, we went out to eat to Captain's Galley which is this local seafood place with Felicia's family. I met one of her aunts, her uncle and a cousin. I don't remember any of their names though. They were really nice. We talked and had fun. The baby wanted to walk around so I held her hand and walked with her. After a little while she must have gotten the hang of it cuz she took like 5-6 steps on her own. I jumped! LOL. The only thing really worth mentioning is that I realized I feel very uncomfortable saying grace in public before a meal or doing Christian things in public to please other people. And the reason? Well, because as some of you might already know, I am not Christian. Felicia is a 7th Day Adventist and by default the babies will be too. That's cool. I've also agreed to go to church with her and say grace before a meal but only in the privacy of my own home. I don't want to do it in public the same way any Christian will not attempt to do something un-Christian just to please his or her present company. Does that make sense. Not being a Christian is my belief. People might not agree with it, but it's still my belief. And doing Christian things to please my wife is ok, but I realized I felt very uncomfortable sitting in a public place with a party of 17 saying grace. Then to top it off, we stood in the middle of the parking lot after the meal and held hands in prayer. By then, I was so uncomfortable I wanted to leave. I'm sure it's a beautiful thing to be that open about your beliefs and religion. But I am also that open about me not being Christian. I spoke with Felicia about it, she told me her family was cool about that and I shouldn't worry about it. But I still don't want to offend them. Anyway, I went on a rant on that one...sorry, religion (or lack there of in my case) and spirituality are something I hold to myself and myself only. I don't even share my true spiritual beliefs with my family or wife. It's just that personal to me.
That evening, Ricky, my mom, Felicia, the bean and I went to try this new burrito place near my mom's house. It's called Moe's. It's ok, I didn't really like their burritos and their nacho cheese dip is ok. I wouldn't really frequent it that much. Felicia loves it. I'll take Q-doba any day of the week over Moe's. Ricky didn't like it either.
So, I'm pissed because "we iz broke as hell". Felicia cleans two banks for her dad and he hasn't paid her for the work so it threw our budget way out of whack. I hate this shit. I hate being broke. It pissed me off so bad. But, hopefully we will get the money this week sometime and we can do something.
Well, this got long enough didn't it. I guess that's all for now. Bye.
Anyway, sometimes I feel Felicia is a bit too attached to me. I am very grateful that she is most of the time. I love having her around me, I love the way she makes me feel and the little thing she does for me that she probably thinks I don't notice but I do. I love everything about her. But from time to time I want to be me... just plain me. Not Javier the husband,(yeah, in case you didn't know that is my name, I don't think I've ever mentioned that here) not Javier the father, not Javier the oldest son, not Javier the anything.... Just me! I want to be able to move around freely and not be confined to our little apartment. But, sometimes I feel Felicia doesn't want that. We got in a bit of an argument over it. Nothing major, but I was pissed on Saturday night. God, I hadn't been that pissed in a while. I think a marriage is the strongest bond between a man and a women. And, when you are married you become one with that person. But at the same time, I don't want to lose my individuality. I don't want to be constantly attached to that person. I have my likes and dislikes, I want to go out and not worry about being considered inattentive or negligent (she didn't say that, that's how she makes me feel sometimes). I feel like I am a bad person and a bad husband. But, I know I am not... I know I am not a bad person and I am not a bad husband. I just wish I had a little more personal space... Wheew...! Had to get that out before I bottled it deep inside and having it erupt with the force of a volcano in 20 years.
Anyway, with that out of the way, this weekend, as every other, went by too fast. Saturday we went to Chili's and The Grad (again). It seems like my life is repeating itself every seven days (Groundhog Day anyone?!). But I was broke. Serg had to pay for everything. I hate it when I have to let him pay for everything or Gene too... I feel like such a leech. Anyway, while we were in the grad these Marlboro people came in with a little lap top type thing and made us fill out a survey. In return, they gave us a cool Zippo lighter. Gene smokes Newports so he didn't get one..hehehe. Serg and I want to take them to that place in Concord Mills Mall to get them engraved with something. I already chose my design...
Sunday, we went out to eat to Captain's Galley which is this local seafood place with Felicia's family. I met one of her aunts, her uncle and a cousin. I don't remember any of their names though. They were really nice. We talked and had fun. The baby wanted to walk around so I held her hand and walked with her. After a little while she must have gotten the hang of it cuz she took like 5-6 steps on her own. I jumped! LOL. The only thing really worth mentioning is that I realized I feel very uncomfortable saying grace in public before a meal or doing Christian things in public to please other people. And the reason? Well, because as some of you might already know, I am not Christian. Felicia is a 7th Day Adventist and by default the babies will be too. That's cool. I've also agreed to go to church with her and say grace before a meal but only in the privacy of my own home. I don't want to do it in public the same way any Christian will not attempt to do something un-Christian just to please his or her present company. Does that make sense. Not being a Christian is my belief. People might not agree with it, but it's still my belief. And doing Christian things to please my wife is ok, but I realized I felt very uncomfortable sitting in a public place with a party of 17 saying grace. Then to top it off, we stood in the middle of the parking lot after the meal and held hands in prayer. By then, I was so uncomfortable I wanted to leave. I'm sure it's a beautiful thing to be that open about your beliefs and religion. But I am also that open about me not being Christian. I spoke with Felicia about it, she told me her family was cool about that and I shouldn't worry about it. But I still don't want to offend them. Anyway, I went on a rant on that one...sorry, religion (or lack there of in my case) and spirituality are something I hold to myself and myself only. I don't even share my true spiritual beliefs with my family or wife. It's just that personal to me.
That evening, Ricky, my mom, Felicia, the bean and I went to try this new burrito place near my mom's house. It's called Moe's. It's ok, I didn't really like their burritos and their nacho cheese dip is ok. I wouldn't really frequent it that much. Felicia loves it. I'll take Q-doba any day of the week over Moe's. Ricky didn't like it either.
So, I'm pissed because "we iz broke as hell". Felicia cleans two banks for her dad and he hasn't paid her for the work so it threw our budget way out of whack. I hate this shit. I hate being broke. It pissed me off so bad. But, hopefully we will get the money this week sometime and we can do something.
Well, this got long enough didn't it. I guess that's all for now. Bye.
Thursday, November 13, 2003
Last night my back started hurting really bad. I've always had a bad back. But last night just laying in bed made it hurt really bad. Felicia gave me a nice little wifey massage and it helped a great deal. She's soooo good to me...LOL
Today I had to call Humana which is my insurance carrier to get info on their chiropractic care. The lady told me the first visit for evaluation and X-rays is only a $15 copay as if it was a regular doctor's visit. But, for the actual therapy, I am responsible for 100% of the chiropractor's rate until I meet my deductible of $250. Shit! Anyway, the good news is that after I meet the deductible the insurance company is responsible for 90% of the therapy and I'm responsible for 10% until I hit $1000 in a year.
The sad thing is, this is the worst insurance I've had so far. It's so expensive on a monthly basis to cover myself, Felcia and the baby and on top of that, the coverage is awful. The baby's cold medicine was $30....THIRTY FREAKIN' DOLLARS! I've never paid that much for medicine when I have insurance...but Oh, well...that's life I guess.
There's more stuff I have to type here, but I am being lazy so I will type it later tonight or tomorrow..hehehe.
Today I had to call Humana which is my insurance carrier to get info on their chiropractic care. The lady told me the first visit for evaluation and X-rays is only a $15 copay as if it was a regular doctor's visit. But, for the actual therapy, I am responsible for 100% of the chiropractor's rate until I meet my deductible of $250. Shit! Anyway, the good news is that after I meet the deductible the insurance company is responsible for 90% of the therapy and I'm responsible for 10% until I hit $1000 in a year.
The sad thing is, this is the worst insurance I've had so far. It's so expensive on a monthly basis to cover myself, Felcia and the baby and on top of that, the coverage is awful. The baby's cold medicine was $30....THIRTY FREAKIN' DOLLARS! I've never paid that much for medicine when I have insurance...but Oh, well...that's life I guess.
There's more stuff I have to type here, but I am being lazy so I will type it later tonight or tomorrow..hehehe.
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
Time to ramble some more...
Weekend pretty uneventful. Saturday we pretty much spent sitting around the house being lazy. On Sunday me, Felicia and my moms went out to several stores to window shop. I can't do manly things like sit around watching old kung-fu flicks or mindlessly channel surf for hours. Now, that I am married, I window shop on Sundays with my mom and my wife. And you wonder why men live less than women. Where's my handgun... I have to blow my brains out. LOL.
Yesterday I called in sick to work, I wasn't really sick though. I was just really, really hung over from drinking with Gene on Monday night. No reason, we just started drinking and playing Tekken 4. I kicked his ass again. hehehehe.
Today it's dead at work, which seems to be the norm now a days. I am not complaining. I have been sitting in front of my computer since like 1:45 surfing on the net cuz we have nothing to do!!! It's like 2:30 now. THIS KICKS ASS! But it does make the day go by really slow. I was talking to Melanie (Mel) at work today. She is leaving the company in a week or so. I wanted to know about the company's softball team. She's part of it, I am not...Anyway, it's very loosely based. People practically show up when they feel like it and they figure out what to do seconds before the game starts. When she gave me the list of people, I knew like one or two people. So I decided not to join. LOL...
OH, on Thursday of last week we rented a movie called Y tu mama tambien. It's an excellent Mexican movie made in 2002. I loved it, it's really good. You guys should rent it. It's in Spanish but subtitled. It's pretty vulgar but it's also very true to the way we really speak Spanish. Anyway, check it out, you won't be disappointed.
I guess that's all for now...later.
Weekend pretty uneventful. Saturday we pretty much spent sitting around the house being lazy. On Sunday me, Felicia and my moms went out to several stores to window shop. I can't do manly things like sit around watching old kung-fu flicks or mindlessly channel surf for hours. Now, that I am married, I window shop on Sundays with my mom and my wife. And you wonder why men live less than women. Where's my handgun... I have to blow my brains out. LOL.
Yesterday I called in sick to work, I wasn't really sick though. I was just really, really hung over from drinking with Gene on Monday night. No reason, we just started drinking and playing Tekken 4. I kicked his ass again. hehehehe.
Today it's dead at work, which seems to be the norm now a days. I am not complaining. I have been sitting in front of my computer since like 1:45 surfing on the net cuz we have nothing to do!!! It's like 2:30 now. THIS KICKS ASS! But it does make the day go by really slow. I was talking to Melanie (Mel) at work today. She is leaving the company in a week or so. I wanted to know about the company's softball team. She's part of it, I am not...Anyway, it's very loosely based. People practically show up when they feel like it and they figure out what to do seconds before the game starts. When she gave me the list of people, I knew like one or two people. So I decided not to join. LOL...
OH, on Thursday of last week we rented a movie called Y tu mama tambien. It's an excellent Mexican movie made in 2002. I loved it, it's really good. You guys should rent it. It's in Spanish but subtitled. It's pretty vulgar but it's also very true to the way we really speak Spanish. Anyway, check it out, you won't be disappointed.
I guess that's all for now...later.
Friday, November 07, 2003
So, I was sitting at workbored as hell waiting for a response from a medical facility to tell us what to do when a patient requested his blood back! No, I am not going into details with that one....I was going through other blogs and I saw someone that had this on their blog. So every Friday, I will have this on my blog...cuz I have nothing better to do at work.
It is known as The Friday Five. Here it goes.
1. What food do you like that most people hate?
Raw oysters, I love raw oysters with some lime and hot sauce. In Mexico, I lived near a beach town and we had raw oysters all the time.
2. What food do you hate that most people love?
Italian. Not all Italian food though. The stuff that has too much tomato paste or marinera sauce I can't deal with.
3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you?
Halle Berry. I think she looks much better with long hair than with short. But even then, I'm not much into her. And, if you noticed, as I did, in the movie Swordfish, she has sagging tits.
4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find
attractive?
Janeane Garofalo. Well, maybe not lately...but I couldn't think of anyone else.
5. What popular trend baffles you?
the BLING BLING culture. When it dies out, it's going to be what Disco was for the 80's... OH!!! and the stupid kids with the trucker hats. Fucking idiots!
It is known as The Friday Five. Here it goes.
1. What food do you like that most people hate?
Raw oysters, I love raw oysters with some lime and hot sauce. In Mexico, I lived near a beach town and we had raw oysters all the time.
2. What food do you hate that most people love?
Italian. Not all Italian food though. The stuff that has too much tomato paste or marinera sauce I can't deal with.
3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you?
Halle Berry. I think she looks much better with long hair than with short. But even then, I'm not much into her. And, if you noticed, as I did, in the movie Swordfish, she has sagging tits.
4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find
attractive?
Janeane Garofalo. Well, maybe not lately...but I couldn't think of anyone else.
5. What popular trend baffles you?
the BLING BLING culture. When it dies out, it's going to be what Disco was for the 80's... OH!!! and the stupid kids with the trucker hats. Fucking idiots!
OH LORD! Serg, Ricky and Gene just bought the SOCOM 2 video game. They spent almost every breathing living moment playing the original SOCOM. Now, they spent every living breathing moment playing that thing. The game is about the coolest game I've ever seen, but these guys are fucking addicted to that thing. The reason it bothers me is because I don't have the largest group of friends because with my wife and the baby I don't really have time to make or maintain a lot of friends. And, this addiction means they won't want to go out any more because they'd rather play that game at home rather than go out. Today is Friday, I don't even know if we have plans or not. I have to see if they're in the mood to go out or as per usual, stay in and play that game until 4 or 5 in the morning. This sucks...I need more friends...LOL.
THe baby is getting better, she was able to sleep through the night for the most part. My panic attacks have not returned. I haven't had a single one since Tuesday or so. Work is boring right now, there's hardly anything to do. The day is soooooooo dragging. I really want to leave my job right now...but I am stuck here til 9 pm. Well, let's see what happens later..it's only 3 pm now....
THe baby is getting better, she was able to sleep through the night for the most part. My panic attacks have not returned. I haven't had a single one since Tuesday or so. Work is boring right now, there's hardly anything to do. The day is soooooooo dragging. I really want to leave my job right now...but I am stuck here til 9 pm. Well, let's see what happens later..it's only 3 pm now....
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Today, as soon as I walked into the office Cindy, my co-worker, told me that she just came from the break room and she saw on TV that a guy was leading the CMPD on a high speed chase through Charlotte. Cindy didn't have any juicy details though. So, since I wanted a Coke anyhow, I went to the breakroom. After a minute of sitting there watching this guy almost crash at least twice. He pulls into a Best Buy and casually walks out with the kid on his arm. The kid was a toddler at best. Shortly the cops raided the Best Buy and one cop walked out with the kid on his arms.
Then I though to myself, what a fucking moron! I mean really, why the fuck would you walk into a Best Buy when the whole freaking thing is being televised! Best Buy has a whole wall covered with TV's showing local channels! That was the dumbest fucking move he could make. Then again, I guess the dumbest move was that shortly before he was in a domestic dispute with who I am guessing is the baby's mother and shot and killed her. What a cunt-rag! Then to top it all off, he kidnaps a toddler. I'm thinking, if you hate the bitch you're fucking, and I can understand not liking someone you're having sex with...shit, some of the girls I've fucked I've down right loathed, but that's still no reason to kill her. I am thinking that was probably his child. He probably didn't get along with the girl and shot her. Now, the kid has to grow up with the stigma that his father killed his mother. Some fucking world we live in. I sometimes wish someone or something would come down and castrate men like that and by the same token, remove the womb from hyena-like women too. People like that don't deserve to reproduce. That is a gift greater than personal life itself. I guess I just love my child too much to understand people like that. Even if Felicia and I ever get to the point were we totally hate each other guts (I hope that never happens though) I would never do anything in front of the baby to shatter her existence. People should be more considerate of kids. Anyway, that's my rant... That guy really does not deserve that child... I think a lot of people out there do not deserve children. It's a treasure only certain people can value.
If you want to read more about the story go to NBC 6
Then I though to myself, what a fucking moron! I mean really, why the fuck would you walk into a Best Buy when the whole freaking thing is being televised! Best Buy has a whole wall covered with TV's showing local channels! That was the dumbest fucking move he could make. Then again, I guess the dumbest move was that shortly before he was in a domestic dispute with who I am guessing is the baby's mother and shot and killed her. What a cunt-rag! Then to top it all off, he kidnaps a toddler. I'm thinking, if you hate the bitch you're fucking, and I can understand not liking someone you're having sex with...shit, some of the girls I've fucked I've down right loathed, but that's still no reason to kill her. I am thinking that was probably his child. He probably didn't get along with the girl and shot her. Now, the kid has to grow up with the stigma that his father killed his mother. Some fucking world we live in. I sometimes wish someone or something would come down and castrate men like that and by the same token, remove the womb from hyena-like women too. People like that don't deserve to reproduce. That is a gift greater than personal life itself. I guess I just love my child too much to understand people like that. Even if Felicia and I ever get to the point were we totally hate each other guts (I hope that never happens though) I would never do anything in front of the baby to shatter her existence. People should be more considerate of kids. Anyway, that's my rant... That guy really does not deserve that child... I think a lot of people out there do not deserve children. It's a treasure only certain people can value.
If you want to read more about the story go to NBC 6
I realized that I am posting my blog one day late. I usually don't update for a couple of days cuz I'm lazy...hehe.
Anyway, the night before last Fabianna got sick. She sounded terrible. She has a cold I think. She has a lot of phlegm and mucus. If she lays down she can't breath that well. She would fall asleep for about an hour and then wake up coughing and crying. We got no sleep at all. So, I was sooo tired at work. Last night it wasn't that bad. She was still a little sick but she slept more. I told Felicia I wasn't able to spend another nigh up and then go to work today. So I came to sleep in the living room. Felicia took her to the doctor today. I hope she's better soon. I hate to see the baby sick. Felicia gets so worried too.
We're trying to play the baby's party. On December 5, Fabianna turns 1! I can't believe it's been a whole years since that little thing was born. I feel so happy and proud. She and Felicia are everything in my life. A full year of poopie diapers, sleepless nights and spitting baby food. LOL but also, a full year of joy and happiness, her smile and her laughter brightens up everything no matter how sad or pissed I am. When I hear her cry, I don't care how tired I am, I want to go make her stop crying, and when she does and it's thanks to me, I feel so blessed. A full year of teaching her how to clap, crawl, walk, speak, what's wrong and right. A full year of the most wonderful experience of my life.... I am really glad I have her.(Go to Oprah! Go to Oprah! Go to Oprah!)
Oh, I got another crazy call at work yesterday, or the day before...I can't remember. Anyway, I get a relay call which is one of those hearing impaired calls where the caller types the thing and an operator reads it to me and then I talk to the operator and he or she types it back to the caller. Anyway, I get this deaf lady from Target and she has a complaint about her manager. The chick tells me that her manager yelled at her!! ok? are you getting this? The manager...yelled...at a deaf girl! I mean...when several of my co-workers overheard me they came to my office and started laughing their asses off. LOL...In her defense though, she did later say, "Well, I don't know if she raised her voice or yelled." But you know, the way she first said kinda tripped me out. I know the relay operator was at least snickering cuz I heard her.... haha...that was the trippy call of the day.
Well, it's only 11 am, I still have the whole day ahead of me, so let's see what else happens. Laterz!
Anyway, the night before last Fabianna got sick. She sounded terrible. She has a cold I think. She has a lot of phlegm and mucus. If she lays down she can't breath that well. She would fall asleep for about an hour and then wake up coughing and crying. We got no sleep at all. So, I was sooo tired at work. Last night it wasn't that bad. She was still a little sick but she slept more. I told Felicia I wasn't able to spend another nigh up and then go to work today. So I came to sleep in the living room. Felicia took her to the doctor today. I hope she's better soon. I hate to see the baby sick. Felicia gets so worried too.
We're trying to play the baby's party. On December 5, Fabianna turns 1! I can't believe it's been a whole years since that little thing was born. I feel so happy and proud. She and Felicia are everything in my life. A full year of poopie diapers, sleepless nights and spitting baby food. LOL but also, a full year of joy and happiness, her smile and her laughter brightens up everything no matter how sad or pissed I am. When I hear her cry, I don't care how tired I am, I want to go make her stop crying, and when she does and it's thanks to me, I feel so blessed. A full year of teaching her how to clap, crawl, walk, speak, what's wrong and right. A full year of the most wonderful experience of my life.... I am really glad I have her.(Go to Oprah! Go to Oprah! Go to Oprah!)
Oh, I got another crazy call at work yesterday, or the day before...I can't remember. Anyway, I get a relay call which is one of those hearing impaired calls where the caller types the thing and an operator reads it to me and then I talk to the operator and he or she types it back to the caller. Anyway, I get this deaf lady from Target and she has a complaint about her manager. The chick tells me that her manager yelled at her!! ok? are you getting this? The manager...yelled...at a deaf girl! I mean...when several of my co-workers overheard me they came to my office and started laughing their asses off. LOL...In her defense though, she did later say, "Well, I don't know if she raised her voice or yelled." But you know, the way she first said kinda tripped me out. I know the relay operator was at least snickering cuz I heard her.... haha...that was the trippy call of the day.
Well, it's only 11 am, I still have the whole day ahead of me, so let's see what else happens. Laterz!
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
Yesterday I continued to have my mini panic attacks mostly for the rest of the day. I counted about 5 or 6. That sucked. Everybody is telling me to go see the doctor but I really don't want to bother. I'll see if they continue. I had one so far today, I got it as soon as I sat in my office at work. I don't know what they are. But somehow, they don't really have me worried.
Oh shit! Let me tell you about this call I got yesterday at work. As you might know (or not), I work for an ethics and compliance corporation. What we do, in a nutshell, we have a bunch of clients, from the biggest and baddest corporations such as Target, Home Depot, Starbuck's and many others all the way down to your local or regional places. Anyway, we get all the bitchy, over sensitive, always-insulted-by-the-minor-of-comments employees to make petty complaints such as "my manager didn't say Hi to me this morning, that's discrimination" and "I was wrongfully terminated for missing 10 days in a row without calling in or submitting a doctor's note" to the truly ethical calls from responsible employees informing us of fraud, theft, sexual harassment and shit like that. Well, what we do is we listen to their complaint or petty tirade and we make a report out of it. We then forward that information to the company's corporate headquarter's and they conduct an investigation. Then the info is relayed back to us so we can deal with the caller. Simple enough huh? LOL...anyway, with that out of the way, let me tell you about my call yesterday.
Between 6 and 8 pm, I can't remember the exact time, I get a call from Progressive Insurance. It was this chick and she tells me she's going to ask me something but I had to promise not to hang up. I say ok and she goes, "Are you gay?" I tell her I'm not..then she asked me if I have a wife and kids and I say yes...then she was going to ask me something else but she hung up...I guess she didn't like someone playing along with her on the phone instead of hanging up on her or cussing her out. So, a few seconds later I get the call again. When I answer the phone I obviously have to say my name. So I guess she realized it was the same person and she froze for a second. So I say, "yes, ma'm, can I help you? I'm the same person you just hung up on." Now, you'd figure any person in their right mind would hang up right? Guess what this little cuntrag told me!!! The bitch goes, "Well, the reason I asked you about your family and wife is because I have them right here with me and if you don't give me $5000 I will kill them both" So, I said, "Sorry, I can't help you with that, is there anything else I can help you with?" she says, "No, I hate you" and hung up.
So, I of course, didn't believe her for a second, but situation such as these I have to report to the management due to the nature of our business. So, Kendall, my QA tells me to immediately call my wife and make sure she's ok. Well, I had to call my mom's house cuz I knew Felicia would be there dropping the baby off. The baby was there, but Felicia was at work. So, when I was telling Kendall, Megan, one of my co-workers, overhears me and tells me she received a similar call from Progressive asking similar question about sexual favors and asking for ransom. Megan said several other employees received the call too. The caller said she was in Ontario, Canada...but who knows. Hahaha....
Today, I came in and I was told that Todd, another employee, got the call today. Since by know we were all aware of the situation through emails and shit, Todd told the girl if she was aware what she was doing was a federal offense and she could go to jail for it. The girl said no. Todd said, Hold one second while I trace your call. HAHAHAHAHAHA. The girl hung up...she hasn't called back since. That shit was sooo funny. There really are some crazy motherfuckers out there. They have nothing to do but bother people. I mean, how pathetic is your existence if your only and most exhilarating pleasure is to make prank calls. Not to mention, you're not making your funny, innocent, run of the mill telephone prank call. You are threatening people to kill their families and shit. That's some hardcore psychological deviation right there...lol. But oh well, I guess it does take diff'rent strokes to move the world (wachu talkin' 'bout, Willis?). The day is pretty early, we'll see what else develops.
Oh shit! Let me tell you about this call I got yesterday at work. As you might know (or not), I work for an ethics and compliance corporation. What we do, in a nutshell, we have a bunch of clients, from the biggest and baddest corporations such as Target, Home Depot, Starbuck's and many others all the way down to your local or regional places. Anyway, we get all the bitchy, over sensitive, always-insulted-by-the-minor-of-comments employees to make petty complaints such as "my manager didn't say Hi to me this morning, that's discrimination" and "I was wrongfully terminated for missing 10 days in a row without calling in or submitting a doctor's note" to the truly ethical calls from responsible employees informing us of fraud, theft, sexual harassment and shit like that. Well, what we do is we listen to their complaint or petty tirade and we make a report out of it. We then forward that information to the company's corporate headquarter's and they conduct an investigation. Then the info is relayed back to us so we can deal with the caller. Simple enough huh? LOL...anyway, with that out of the way, let me tell you about my call yesterday.
Between 6 and 8 pm, I can't remember the exact time, I get a call from Progressive Insurance. It was this chick and she tells me she's going to ask me something but I had to promise not to hang up. I say ok and she goes, "Are you gay?" I tell her I'm not..then she asked me if I have a wife and kids and I say yes...then she was going to ask me something else but she hung up...I guess she didn't like someone playing along with her on the phone instead of hanging up on her or cussing her out. So, a few seconds later I get the call again. When I answer the phone I obviously have to say my name. So I guess she realized it was the same person and she froze for a second. So I say, "yes, ma'm, can I help you? I'm the same person you just hung up on." Now, you'd figure any person in their right mind would hang up right? Guess what this little cuntrag told me!!! The bitch goes, "Well, the reason I asked you about your family and wife is because I have them right here with me and if you don't give me $5000 I will kill them both" So, I said, "Sorry, I can't help you with that, is there anything else I can help you with?" she says, "No, I hate you" and hung up.
So, I of course, didn't believe her for a second, but situation such as these I have to report to the management due to the nature of our business. So, Kendall, my QA tells me to immediately call my wife and make sure she's ok. Well, I had to call my mom's house cuz I knew Felicia would be there dropping the baby off. The baby was there, but Felicia was at work. So, when I was telling Kendall, Megan, one of my co-workers, overhears me and tells me she received a similar call from Progressive asking similar question about sexual favors and asking for ransom. Megan said several other employees received the call too. The caller said she was in Ontario, Canada...but who knows. Hahaha....
Today, I came in and I was told that Todd, another employee, got the call today. Since by know we were all aware of the situation through emails and shit, Todd told the girl if she was aware what she was doing was a federal offense and she could go to jail for it. The girl said no. Todd said, Hold one second while I trace your call. HAHAHAHAHAHA. The girl hung up...she hasn't called back since. That shit was sooo funny. There really are some crazy motherfuckers out there. They have nothing to do but bother people. I mean, how pathetic is your existence if your only and most exhilarating pleasure is to make prank calls. Not to mention, you're not making your funny, innocent, run of the mill telephone prank call. You are threatening people to kill their families and shit. That's some hardcore psychological deviation right there...lol. But oh well, I guess it does take diff'rent strokes to move the world (wachu talkin' 'bout, Willis?). The day is pretty early, we'll see what else develops.
Monday, November 03, 2003
Well, I guess I found out that I probably won’t update my blog on weekends. I am too busy with the baby, the wifey and trying to figure out how to have some fun with my limited amount of friends. LOL. On the 31st, Me, Serg, Gene and Shelly went to Bailey’s. It wasn’t like the greatest time but it will have to do. They had a costume contest. Most of the costumes were pretty lame and pointless. They had Jem from Jem and the Holograms, Bums, and a Zombie pimp…not to mention the freakishly large amount of guys dressed like women and old ladies. I’ve always found that to be some type of repressed closet homosexuality type shit…but hey, I ain’tz not Freud. One of the costumes was really cool. The guy called himself G. Web or something like that. It was this huge costume that looked like some type or robot/moster/GWAR thing. It has a huge rotary saw on one hand and some type of lighted prong thing on the other and weird tentacles and hoses protruding from its entire body. Anyway, it was cool….he won of course….it was like 200 or 300 dls. After the contest they had some gay ass, local, Creed-playing band called Tone Deaf, so we left. We headed to The Grad Pineville nextdoor. It was pretty dull as well. The only thing that saved the night was that Serg was blitz and was pretty much was entertaining us with the shit he was saying and because he was flirting with every girl and waitress in the place!! That was funny. He also got the DJ to play La Bamba…now that shit was fucking funny!!!!!! We were laughing to hard. Oh, then this dude walked in with a Oderus Orungus costume. That was pretty cool!
GWAR KICKS ASS!
Needless to say, I got really drunk that night and crashed in my mom’s living room. Man, the next day I woke up at like 1:45 pm. I called Felicia immediately….She was pissed! I felt like shit. I apologized up and down and she of course played every wife’s role of “I’m not mad, just disappointed, It’s ok�….Yeah, I’m not falling for that one….anymore…hehe. So, finally she spent most of the day at her dad’s and I spent most of the day at my mom’s and that night we had a husband to wife talk. In other words, she chewed me up…but I deserved it, so I’m not complaining about it. Sunday I laid in the house all freaking day long. Nothing happened, nothing at all…hehehe…that felt good.
This morning I had a weird sort of panic attack. It wasn’t really a panic attack because I have these “attacks� all the time. Maybe I used one too many hits of fry when I was younger. Anyway, I get these weird flashbacks and become engulfed in uncontrollable fear. I can’t shake it either…it’s like I’m petrified. The weird thing is they would not last more than 30-45 seconds. Well, I had them a lot right before Fabianna was born. Like three to five times per day! Around Oct and Nov of last year it got pretty bad. Then for the past month or so, I’ve noticed that they started coming back. But, not the same way. I was able to shake them off immediately after I felt the first signs. Then, it would be gone. I also noticed that when I or someone else sneezes, and it catches me off guard. I begin to feel it creeping. But again, I am able to control it. This morning I was able to shake it. It came and it came full force. Luckily, by now, I am well aware of exactly how I am going to feel so I didn’t let it control me this time. I sat there and rode it…all the way…It was scary as fuck too. But I didn’t lose control and it went away in a few seconds. I really don’t know what they are, or how they came about. When I was much younger I would get them really bad…but not as frequent. Maybe once or twice a year. Maybe it’s some sort of mid-mid-life crisis…LOL. Anyway, if anyone knows what they are, let me know.
I guess that’s all.
Needless to say, I got really drunk that night and crashed in my mom’s living room. Man, the next day I woke up at like 1:45 pm. I called Felicia immediately….She was pissed! I felt like shit. I apologized up and down and she of course played every wife’s role of “I’m not mad, just disappointed, It’s ok�….Yeah, I’m not falling for that one….anymore…hehe. So, finally she spent most of the day at her dad’s and I spent most of the day at my mom’s and that night we had a husband to wife talk. In other words, she chewed me up…but I deserved it, so I’m not complaining about it. Sunday I laid in the house all freaking day long. Nothing happened, nothing at all…hehehe…that felt good.
This morning I had a weird sort of panic attack. It wasn’t really a panic attack because I have these “attacks� all the time. Maybe I used one too many hits of fry when I was younger. Anyway, I get these weird flashbacks and become engulfed in uncontrollable fear. I can’t shake it either…it’s like I’m petrified. The weird thing is they would not last more than 30-45 seconds. Well, I had them a lot right before Fabianna was born. Like three to five times per day! Around Oct and Nov of last year it got pretty bad. Then for the past month or so, I’ve noticed that they started coming back. But, not the same way. I was able to shake them off immediately after I felt the first signs. Then, it would be gone. I also noticed that when I or someone else sneezes, and it catches me off guard. I begin to feel it creeping. But again, I am able to control it. This morning I was able to shake it. It came and it came full force. Luckily, by now, I am well aware of exactly how I am going to feel so I didn’t let it control me this time. I sat there and rode it…all the way…It was scary as fuck too. But I didn’t lose control and it went away in a few seconds. I really don’t know what they are, or how they came about. When I was much younger I would get them really bad…but not as frequent. Maybe once or twice a year. Maybe it’s some sort of mid-mid-life crisis…LOL. Anyway, if anyone knows what they are, let me know.
I guess that’s all.
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