WE NEED A BABYSITTER

Felicia starts her new job at CIGNA on August 2nd. Our main problem right now is that her grandmother fell through with the babysitting gig and now we're babysitter-less. Felicia doesn't really want to ask my mom cuz Fabianna alone more than a few hours at a time exhausts her. So we're not about to dump both girls on her for 7 hours a day. So, as it stands, we're in dire need of a babysitter. The problem is that with all the shit we've seen and heard about babysitters neglecting or physically abusing children we cannot just leave them with anybody. The problem is that if anybody touches my child I will lose it... Wolverine's berserker attack will be a mouse's fart compared to my wrath if anybody touches my kids in a malicious or forceful way. I don't even let my mom or in-laws talk harshly to her. Call it what you want, over protective parent or whatever... I don't like it when my daughters cry so I try to avoid them doing so almost by any means. If anyone ignites this type of rage in me we will not call the cops, a lawyer or social services... I will tear that person limb by limb with my bare hands, then we call the cops. Aren't I just a big fucking ray of sunshine?

Anyway, but alas, we have to find somebody. Felicia has been checking out day care centers and they run from $100-$250 per head depending on the side of town of course. We've really kinda decided that we don't wanna do the day care center thing. If we're gonna have a babysitter we'd rather go for one of those almost live in nannies type deal. Someone that can come to our house everyday and take care of them. We don't want to change babysitter too often because we want the girls to get used to that person and hopefully that person will develop some type of personal affection towards the girls and make us feel more at ease.

All my life me and my brother have had some sort of nanny/maid. We were never mistreated or abused (unless we blocked that part of our lives out) because the nannies that took care of us did it for years at a time. We developed a certain affinity and loyalty to them as almost another parent. They also took care of us and when we were sad or hurt they took care of us as they would their own children. So, this is sorta what I am looking for my own daughters. Then again, that was in Mexico and I don't know if people here in the states have the same way of dealing with other people's children... hehe.

Serg and my moms finally closed on their new house. They're going to start moving in over the weekend. Of course, they volunteered me to help move but it's ok cuz at least it will give us something to do together. It's nice house, although I'm not too kosher with the neighborhood but that's not my decision. Me and Felicia plan to move out of Sabal Point when our lease is up on September. Sadly though, right now we cannot afford to buy a house so we're trying to either move to Coffey Creek, rent a house or a condo. I would really like to rent a house so the girls have a yard to play in. Well, I'm just ranting now...

I didn't do the Wednesday Whatevers yesterday so here they are.

1. Would you prefer a doctor of the same or opposite gender?
Of the opposite sex, I've always felt more comfortable opening up to a female than a guy.

2. When you are done, do you prefer the toilet seat up or down?
This is the dumbest question ever... doesn't matter... I guess Felicia would want the to always put it down... I don't even know for sure if I leave it up or down!

3. If you had an extra hour in each day, what would you do with it?
watch TV, I have a dull life