THINGS ARE GETTING REALLY TIGHT

Ok, so now that Felicia has a job and we both get paid on the 13th things are getting much more complicated. Obviously, we've stretched our loans as much as possible and some are waaaaay overdue and in delinquent. The one that is worrying me the most right now is the Parent's Plus Loan my mom took for me under her name when I was in college for tuition and stuff. I was supposed to make a payment by the 5th to be allowed to stay in the rehabilitation program. Her it is, the 10th and I was unable to send the money. The other loan, under my name, from the U.S. Department of Education threatened to garnish my wages if I don't start repaying. They gave me until the 13th to submit $150. So I think we're cool with that. Aside from that, of course, we're up to our necks with bills, payday loans, medical bills, car and insurance payments, RENT, groceries, diapers, baby formula and other baby things, gas, blah, blah, blah, blah.... I swear to God sometimes I think we're not gonna make it. But thankfully with my salary and Felicia's (she gets paid really good!!! almost as much as I do!) combines this is obviously gonna pass soon. But sometimes it just seems that things are never gonna get better. Rent is due tomorrow or we face eviction... WHERE THE FUCK AM I GONNA GET $650 BY TOMORROW AT 9 AM?????

My friend, or should I say former? who knows? Charlotte removed me from her friends list and the ability to view her LiveJournal. Because I wasn't "sensitive" enough for her since apparently it was my responsibility to reassure or alleviate her for her relationship mishaps! I'm not Dr. Fucking Ruth!!!!! I've had plenty of relationship problems in the past but you don't hear me bitching and getting pissed at innocent bystanders because they don't pity me or reassure my emotional dependency to have others tell me how everything is gonna be alright and how even though you FUCKED UP your relationship and the trust it involves you're still a great, magnificent, ethereal person.... But Hey, You're not dating the ONLY asshole in the world... and trust me, as opposed to being a poser asshole... I CAN BE A REAL FUCKING ASSHOLE.


I guess that's it....
bye