Well, this morning Felicia called the doctor's office where Fabianna was supposed to be at 3:30 to reschedule for tomorrow so she could take both babies at the same time (Larissa's appointment was scheduled for tomorrow at 3:30). The nurse told her she could not find Fabi's appointment in the system. It kinda worked out well because they rescheduled her for tomorrow at 3:30 with Larissa (well, actually they scheduled her since the nurse who was supposed to schedule her failed to do so). It kinda pissed me off because if she had not call she would have just shown up and they would have told her she did not have an appointment and sent her home. I mean, I understand it was not a life or death situation but still, they should be more considerate and careful in the industry they're in.

And while we're on the subject of inconsiderate and annoying industries, this Monday I went off on a collector from my student loan. The story goes like this, for the past 7 months I have been on this plan to rehabilitate my loan because it was seriously past due (mostly because I am not working in my field). Well, every month automatically deduct a fixed amount from my checking account. This month, due to unforeseen expenses, the stupid draft bounced last Friday. This chick starts calling over the weekend but she always called when we were not home. So on Monday she begins calling my mom's house and tells my 16 year old brother that if I don't pay they would be the ones that will get in trouble. Ricky shits his pants and tells my mom who couldn't speak to this fucking bitch because she doesn't speak any English.

Immeidately after she gets off the phone with my little brother, she calls home and Felicia picks up. Felicia tells her that I'm asleep and as soon as I wake up I will call her. About 30 minutes later she calls again! She tells Felicia that she feels I'm avoiding her and starts talking all types of shit. Felicia gets upset and tells her to chill and I will call when I wake up (I get up kinda late cuz I'm the king of the house... HELLS YEAH!). About an hour later, my mom calls me again cuz this motherfucking bitch called her again!!!!! My mom tells me everything and then Felicia tells me everything and I get fucking pissed. I called her and I went off on her... dude, these motherfuckers don't take any shit!!!! LOL!

She starts getting pissed too and getting all defensive and that was it for me... I told her a that I understood her job but I didn't have the money to pay them so we could sit here and argue back and forth and call each other all types of mother-remembering names and we wouldn't solve anything. I told her if she ever accused me of avoiding her and did not stop calling my mother or my house every 30 minutes I will mail a cease-contact letter and if that, as third party collection agencies love to do, is ignored, I would obtain proof of the illegal behavior by recording the next harassing phone call she makes. In most states, you can tape a conversation without telling the other party, as long as you are a party to the conversation. That's because the law allows you to record any conversation in which at least one party consents to the taping, and you can be the one who consents. After this, we both calmed down and worked shit out. I was like, what the fuck are you gonna repo... my lame as hooptie car and my old vinyl records? GO AFUCKINGHEAD!!!!! But actually, the chick was trying to help me cuz if I had waiting until tomorrow without talking to her my loan would have been considered delinquent. At the end we ended up laughing and joyously talking about going off on each other... hehe..... That was an interesting thing to wake up to on a Monday morning, gave me a recharge to come to work.... I felt accomplished... LOL!

Last night me and James went out for a few beers. We played foosball all night and now my forearms are really sore. It was kinda cool and helped me vent out some backed up frustrations cuz I didn't get to go out this weekend at all. I've realized that I need to vent out and need some personal time or as I like to call it "single" time... LOL! Which is cool, usually is just me and my guy friends hanging out and acting dumb. But it does help so much to deal with the day to day monotony and problems.

Well, I've been told again that I write too much so I will stop here....

Well, I think I got Larissa (pretty carrot) sick after Fabianna got me sick and I think Larissa got Felicia sick. So, now... we're a big, happy, sickly family.... we're all sick and none of can sleep cuz our noses are stuffed up and cough all night long. Fortunately we're taking them to the doctor tomorrow so they can get'em all fixed up.

Fabianna has been really picking up on lots of words lately. She's very smart. She can count (almost) up to five with somebody saying the numbers to her. Of course her pronunciation is not perfect but she's only a year and three months old... hehe. Fabianna has been really active lately. She's constantly jumping and wanting to play. This wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't tired all the time. I still haven't been able to go to the doctor to get my pills. But I'm working on it.

I wanted to take Fabianna to an egghunt hosted by 107.9 The Link in Matthews but we were so sick we didn't have time to go. Fortunately she's too small to remember but next year I will definitely take her to an egg hunt.

I don't feel like writing in blog today... so I'm gonna stop now...

bye.....................................................

Today I got some great news!!! I got a phone call that I wasn't expecting much from but it turned out to be somethign awesome! I can barely sit still in excitement. Unfortunately... I can't tell you guys about it. Oh well...

bye.

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"Then I'm on display," Piter said. "Shall I dance? Shall I perform my various function for the eminent Feyd-Raud--"

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:
nothing

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
This is SPINAL TAP

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
10:15 am

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
10:18 am

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
Fabianna trying to talk, Felicia talking to Fabianna and the dryer

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:
Last night at about 2:30 am to smoking a cigarette

8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
Checked my e-mail

9:What are you wearing?:
Pair of blue boxers and a white T-shirt with a RoadRoanner High Speed Intert Service logo

10: Did you dream last night? What about?:
Yeah, it was really trippy too... I can't remember it now though

11: When did you last laugh?
A few seconds ago when I told Felicia something funny Fabianna did at my mom's house a few days ago

12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?:
family and baby pictures, calendars, wall clocks and a replica of Munch's The Scream. Just the usual stuff you would find in a family's living room.

13: Seen anything weird lately?:
The other day I heard a nun call a small child a fucking cuntrag... lol, j/k

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
I don't

15: What is the last film you saw?:
This is SPINAL TAP

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
A mansion for my family

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
You don't know anything about me

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
Wow, this is a tough one. Mostly because I can't answer this with just one witty line. I don't know... child abuse and suffering, and I'm not talking about the kids Michael Jackson fondled. I'm talking about infants and toddles in 3rd world countries that go days without food, medicine or water. The ones that die of malnutrition and famine, the ones that are tortured by their hyena parents or anyone else... ok, let me stop before I get angry

19: Do you like to dance?:
yes, but I don't know how to... I want to learn how to

20: George Bush:
Needs to go have an all out gay orgy with Sadamm, Bin-Laden, Kim Jong-Il and all the other terrorists, dictators and assholes to measure their microscopic dick and settle their penis envy conflicts in the privacy of their own harem so people (from all countries) stop dying needlesly. (as you can tell, I hate him)

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
I would have named her Fabianna Olivia and the second one would have been called Larissa Mariana

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Ian

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
I was born abroad...I was born a broad... duh, hu.. hu.. hu... get it get it. This reminds me of a SNL skit where Sean Connery was playing Jepoardy and Alex told him to pick a category. Sean says, I'll go with "The Rapist" when in reality it read "Therapist". LOL!

23: Will you pass on this survey?:
Wait! I'm being graded on this? Nobody told me I was going to be graded! Damn it....

Let's see, the quest for perfection isn't going too well.... Fabianna has really screwed up her sleeping habits and now she doesn't go sleep til 1 or 2 in the morning. We have the same problem with Larissa but she stays up even later. This has caused me to be excessively tired every morning and not get up in time to do much of anything. At work though, I have been maintaining a great performance by not slacking off and focusing on my job. You know what I've found out? It has made my job more enjoyable, easier and makes the day go by faster. I see James or other people around me getting frustrated the way I used to get. I don't do that anymore... I don't let myself get frustrated with the people I deal with at work because whatever their problem is, it's not mine and if I get frustrated with them I will end up hating my job and slacking off again. I've always been able to do this, set a goal and keep it or reach it rather easily. The problem is, rarely do I ever set goals in my life... sad, huh? I've had no problems keeping up with work. The problems have been mostly been at home since the kids tire the hell out of me. I have not been able to see the doctor for my Synthroid pills since something unexpected came up and I have no money for the copay. This payperiod coming up I should be able to get that and other things I need to start my new (hopefully better) life.

Felicia is still looking for a job, currently she is helping her dad with one of the banks the way we used to early last year. It's no much, but it's better than nothing. My baby wants a job really bad and I know she will find one really soon. Serg wasn't able to take Fabi to the Easter egg hunt last weekend cuz according to his company it was only for employees and their spouses and kids. Hopefully this weekend we will either get together at a park with the kids and Sharmeen's.

Speaking of kids, Fabianna is sick yet again... This time though, she got me sick too. I have been sick all weekend. But she has been too and I hate it because she can't even sleep peacefully with her little nose stuffed up and the coughing. She also has a runny nose and lots of phlegm. This morning I was trying to rub some Vick's VapoRub on her and when I turned away for a second, se grabbed a big glob of it and trying to imitate me, slapped it all over her face. The shit got in her eyes and all over her hair and face. It was hard to get it off her eyes becaue she was crying and rubbing them. Finally, I squirted almost a whole bottle of Visine in her eyes while rubbing them with a soft cloth. It was bad, but fortunately nothing serious. On Monday I felt so sick I had to call out from work. I felt lightheaded and weak.... almost as if I was high... LOL. Sadly, I wasn't... just sick.

A little while ago, I helped train this other communications specialist at work. He is a white guy named Ryan. Today, he showed me pictures of his wife and his wedding. He is also in an interracial marriage with a black woman. When I was training him a couple of weeks ago, he told me his wife is a... shit I forgot..... she's either a Jehova's Witness or a Mormon.... I think a Jehova's witness. Anyway, and I told him my wife was a 7th day Adventist. He is atheist and I am agnostic... (not the same, but pretty similar). So I figured, we're both in interracial relationships and we both have wives that belong to very tightly knit religious organizations that we don't belong to, so maybe we could hang out sometime with our mutual wives (all together at the same time.. to DINNER you pervs!). Me and Felicia do not have any partner friends such as a girlfriend/boyfriend, husband/wife couple to hang out with. My friends are not the most apt to hang out with my wife cuz they're crude, lewd and obnoxious like yours truly. So, I emailed him a few minutes ago. I will wait for his response to see what happens.

Last Friday night me, Serg and Eugene went to Wild Wing Cafe to see McFly. I really love this band. Mcfly is a 80's cover band with the coolest act and outfits. Not to mention the hot chicks... LOL. Man, it was cool... we had a good time. After that we went home and drank for a little more. Lately, I've barely had the change to enjoy anything because the babies have been such a handful.



Ok.. well, I guess that's it.... here are the Wednesday Whatevers.

1. Would you rather be alone or surrounded by enemies for the rest of your life, and why?
Alone! I can either go insane of loneliness or I can lose my mind by being tortured by my enemies... I think I'd just go insane by myself.

2. Would you choose an eternal but cursed life, or death? Why?
Death, because I cannot grasp the concept of eternity and that could lead to my insanity as well

3. What 5 websites do you visit first everyday?
This one was random compared to the last two! Anyway, the five websites I visit are:

Yahoo for my e-mail.

Engrish and All Dumb for fun.

The Onion for the latest pseudo cool news for pseudo cool people.

The last one would be My own blog.

Ryan, just emailed me back and said it would be cool if we hung out.... but it's nine and I have to go home so we will dicuss this later.

So.... T.G.I.F. huh?

Well, yesterday I got a verbal writing cuz my dumb ass was slacking off at work. Now, I really was fucking around, I am not even gonna front. I was checking my email during a call, I persuaded a caller not to make a report (not intentionally though, I guess I kinda assume that they want a response immediately and feel this will only delay their process, but then again, it's really not my decision to make... hehe) and at one point I was busy typing a response that I let the caller ramble a little bit. Well, I didn't know I was being monitored mostly because I usually don't act this way. I guess I was just having lazy day and my mind was elsewhere with all the shit that's going on. I was monitored three calls and after the third my supervisor told me to meet him in an office. I knew what it was... LOL! I was like shit... I fucked up! He told me he was very disappointed in me and he never expected to see such behavior. Dude, I felt like shit... I felt so small and ashamed because he had been the one who trained and had been understanding and all through my poor attendance due to Larissa's birth and all. I really felt like shit and I know that he was very disappointed in me.

The good thing is that since then I've been wanting to change the way I do things at work. I am not going to slack off anymore and I will now actually be one of the most active participants in the company. I guess before, when I wasn't married and with babies I really couldn't care less if I was written up or fired. I knew there were hundreds of jobs out there and I was bound to be qualified for at least one of them! This job is probably the best, most relaxed job I've ever had. The only sucky thing is the pay, is kinda low. But anyway, now, after the meeting... I couldn't stop thinking about Felicia, Fabianna and Larissa... I couldn't go back home and explain to them or my moms and brothers that I was fired or written up cuz I got cocky at work and started slacking off. I felt humiliated just thinking about it. I realized that everything is for keeps now... YES! I am 28 and I am just NOW realizing this... SUE ME! I also couldn't stop thinking about how I let my supervisor down and mostly how I had promised myself I would do great at this job when I first started. Well, It's been almost a year and I haven't done jack shit! But that's all gonna change now... I am going for the gold this time... what am I saying? Fuck the gold, I'm going for platinum... hehe.

I also plan to make a lot of changes in my life. I want to stop being so damn lazy and out of shape. I will start eating healthy and working out. I never do it because I lack motivation and grabbing a beer has always been easier than working out. Now, I have to motivate myself to do better. No more staying up late doing nothing or waking up late, again... to do nothing. No more being lazy, no more being disorganized, no more being selfish and feeling sorry for what I don't have. Listen, you fuckers, you screwheads. Here is a man who would not take it anymore. A man who stood up against the scum, the cunts, the dogs, the filth, the shit. Here is a man who stood up....... Oh wait... sorry, carried away there... My alter ego, Travis Bickle took over... hehehe. From now on I will be a very positive, responsible, professional father and husband. I have to do it this time, this time I cannot fail or give up.

First things first, the first step will be to call a doctor and get a physical. I need to start taking my Synthroid again. Dr. Webster, my previous doctor, is too far away from me now so I have to pick another doctor and go through the motions all over again. Then I need to get a chiropractor because I want my back checked out before I start working out. Then I will convince Felicia to join me in my quest for perfection (which in my case is not too far from my current state... hehe). Then I have to find a good work out plan and diet. I also need to start getting my personal life and finances organized. I think I will start by balancing my bank account and arranging an area in the house where it is solely used for transactions, bills, and other important stuff. God, there is sooooo much I need to change in my life. But I know this will be the beginning of it. So, you guys better wish me luck.... and it better be good luck too... hehe.

Felicia has been feeling a little down later because she feels she won't find a job. I feel bad because I can't maker her feel good, smile or anything. Due to work and the babies I am constantly tired and fed up with everything that I neglect her. We hardly ever talk or go out anymore because what little rest and quit time I get from work and the babies I want to spend it resting. Hopefully, this new change that I am envisioning will bring me more energy throughout the day to wake up early and take them out to the park, or the stores or whatever and all of us be much happier.

My brother Serg works for Wells Fargo Home Mortgage. Tomorrow they are throwing some type of Easter egg hunt for the kiddies and him and my moms want to take Fabianna to the egg hunt. Last year, Fabi was too small to go on an Easter egg hunt so hopefully this year she will be able to. Last year my family and I invited Sharmeen (Felicia's sister) and her three kids to a park and we had a bunch of hard boiled eggs and other filled with confetti for the kids. We hid them and they were having a blast finding them and breaking the confetti filled ones on each others' heads. We spent the whole day at the park and it was really nice. This year I want to do something similar since Fabianna is old enough to play with Sharmeen's kids this year. I will talk to them about it and maybe we can do it this weekend.

I guess that is all I have to type for right now. I don't have any plans for tonight but for some strange reason, it doesn't bother me.... hmmmm... maybe this is the beginning of the end of the beginning of some cliche phrase I'm supposed to say to forecast the cataclysmic event I described above. hehehe...

Here are the Friday five.

1. Do you eat breakfast? What did you have today?
Yes, everyday. I had scrambled eggs with sliced up hotdog franks. "Huevos con Win" as we call'em in my countrrrrry.

. What beverages do you usually have in a typical day?
Mostly Coke, we have a sucky vending machine.

3. White bread or wheat bread?
Wheat, but preferably Buttermilk

4. What's your favorite kind (potato/tortilla/corn) and flavor of chip?
A tie between Doritos, the regular kind and Lay's Jalapeno chips

5. How do you plan to spend your weekend?
I have no plans yet. But I want to spend it with my family.

I thought you guys would like to know how the Japanese see Uncle Sam.... hahaha.



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