Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Sorta Fixed my blog

Well, I received an email from BloggerPro2 about not being able to align my posts to the top of the page and this is what they said.

"Hi there,

On occasion, the side-bar will shift when the content contained within
the
side-menu extends the column beyond its designated width. We recommend
reviewing the content in both columns to identify items that may be
causing column expansion. In most cases, long links and wide images are
the cause of the problem.


Weeeeell, since I have no idea how to do this cuz I've tried shirking my images as much as possible without any success, I just got rid of the sidebar all together. I figured, the only two things there are the link to the posts that ARE FUCKING VISIBLE IN THIS PAGE! and the archives... well, I got rid of the link and moved the archive links to the bottom of the blog... not that anybody ever uses them, but it's nice to know they're there. So, hopefully the template won't give me any more problems.

Today I feel rather content, I have no idea why.... work is not bothering, the facts that I am incredibly broke and hungry do not bother me, the idiotic calls I've been getting do not bother me... all in all, for some reason, today I feel alive.

Me and James are going to go practice softball this weekend because our first game in on July 11. I haven't played BB since I was like 10 or so. I hope I don't make a fool of myself (more than usual anyway). I don't even have a glove, I have to go buy a cheap one this weekend so we can practice. I haven't received my Whistleblowers jersey either.... I really want to see it though.

My aunts are arriving from Brownsville for two weeks on July 3. My mom has appointed me the de facto tour fucking guide... I hate playing host or guide... I don't do too well. Anyway, so far, the only think I have come up with is the Skyshow. We think we might go to the mountains but I only have the weekends off and the first week they are here they will actually travel to Florida and spend it there.... So I don't know what the fuck is going on. If anybody has any ideas on what to do in this glorious red-mudded state (bursts in sarcastic laughter) let me know, I would really appreciate it.

Wednesday Whatevers.

1. Does time pass by too quickly?
YES! Especially now that I have two daughter... weeks seem like days and days seem like hours. I am going to day really, really soon

2. Can money buy happiness?
I think so, and anybody who says no, come live with us for a week.

3. Is freedom of speech a privilege or a right?
A few years ago I would have said a right, right now with all the braindead, pretentious, oversensitive shit regurgitated out there (and not only in the media) I think it should be a priviledge only a few should have.


Tuesday, June 29, 2004

I LOVE MY WIFE

Nothing special today. I just wanted to post about Felicia. Today I went home for lunch as ever other day. I came home and Felicia and the girls weren't home again. I found my food prepared though. Everything placed and almost labeled in the kitchen. Today she made me chicken drummettes, lima beans and steamed rice, and it was REAAAAAALLy GOOD! I guess the reason I am mentioning this is because as I was preparing my plate I realized how great and perfect she is. How good she is to me and the girls. I never say thank you for these little things she does, you know? She is a great wife and she is and has always been my best friend... Sometimes, in the midst of all the shit we're going through, we forget the great friendship and bond that binds us. Anyway, I have been missing her all day... hence, this rambling...






Monday, June 28, 2004

Fucking posts won't align

I have not been successful, despite many and many attempts to fix the problem and bring my posts up to the top of my page. I am in this Yahoo group called BloggerPro2 which assists you with all your blogger technical glitches and problems. Well, I posted about my problem a few days ago and I've gotten no assistance... apparently no one knows how to fix it. Oh, well...

Ok, so, life has gotten from bad to worse to borderline suicidal at this point. I have never experienced, first hand the type of financial problems I've experienced in the past few months. It has robbed me of my dignity, my happiness, my ability to perform at work, my ability to cope with day-to-day problems and practically my sanity. I have reached rock bottom and there's nothing I can do about it but watch everything around me crumble to pieces. But there is something to be said about how I cope with things too. I procrastinate and allow things to reach irreversible conditions. I constantly pity myself for a day or two before I take action and charge of the situation. I allow things to get me depressed (or at least inside because I do not have the luxury as many others do to portray my depression) or in an emotional rollercoaster because these enormous problems fly at me consecutively. Because of this, I missed work last Thursday and Friday. I was unable to muster the psychological and emotional stability to sit in a 4x6 hellhole and hear other people's complaints for 8 fucking hours... the mere thought of it, in my overemotionally drugged stupor sent a sense of anxiety and inconsolable sadness through my body and felt it tingling from arms all the way down the to the tips of my fingers.... I am sooooooo fucking melodramatic... but alas, it's true. Ok, I will not go into any more details about my problems any more than I did above... I will try to focus in this blog on the good things and moments in the past few days.

So, after I calmed down a bit, Eugene suggested that I needed to distract myself and get piss drunk and forget about everything if only for a few hours. At the time, the idea seemed brewed in none other than Aristotle himself! So, we went bowling since that's what we've been enjoying lately. Since was with the girls, I opted to take them to the bowling alley with me. My mom and Ricky also came along. We had a good time and I bowled three strikes in a row!!!! HELL YEAH, I do believe that's called a turkey... LOL. After that, I dropped the girls off with Felicia and my mom and Ricky stayed there. Still feeling extreme and ill-placed rancor not only towards my situation but God him/herself (fill in with whatever strikes your fancy there), we opted to go to Wild Wing and get blitz beyond consciousness.... sadly, we achieved our goal. After many and many beers, JagerBombs and Goldschlager shots we went home and all I can remember was diving into the makeshift bed that was laid in my mom's living room for me.



Due to the hangover, I'm not exactly sure what happened to Friday or Saturday.

On Sunday, Felicia, the girls and me had the best time we've had in a long, long time. We went to Cherry park in Rock Hill and had a little picnic. We took some drinks, a $5 pizza from Little Caesars, a little radio and we spent a few hours there. The bean was all over the play pen with the other kids, we listened to music, we talked, we read, we rested, we were a family.... a happy normal family! I had not had that feeling since I was younger and my parents would take us out in outing like that... It was really helpful and lifted my spirits way more than drinking myself into a de-evolution of sorts on Thursday night... lol. Sadly though, Sunday ended in a bad and sour note that is still dragging until today.

So, here I am now... sitting in a 4x6 hellhole listening to other people complaint for 7 hours and 45 minutes now. I feel awful and lonely... I just found out my phone has been disconnected due to excessive payments (Rimshot!). During lunch today, which I had alone, I received a letter from the IRS stating I owe them over $7000 because allegedly I worked someone in Colorado in 2002 and made $32,000 more than I filed on my taxes. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!! DOES IT EVER END?????? We've been through this IRS, and we thought we'd solved this one. Apparently someone stole my SSN back in either 2000 or 2001 (probably some goddamn wetback friend of my wetback ex girlfriend or the wetback family I moved in with when I first came to this state with my goddamed wetback ex girlfriend... or maybe a goddamed wetback who moved into the apartment at Lakeside after I moved out and got my mail or something...)Fuck! I don't know, bottom line is someone stole it and according to the IRS in 2001 I made over $70,000 and in 2002 I made over 100,000 (apparently my identity was stolen by either a rich goddamned wetback or a hard working goddamned wetback). So, apparently we had this one solved but that doesn't seem to be the case.... here we go again, as if I need this shit in my life right now. Well, isn't life swell? Now, all I can think of is drinking myself to sleep again like I did on Thursday... is this how alcoholics begin their careers as... ummm... well, alcoholics?


Wednesday, June 23, 2004

The Whistleblowers???

So, I received an email from our manager of product development who is apparently also in charge of the company's softball team who I had signed up for. Well, since the original email to sing up for the team came out some time last month, we had heard nothing. The original e-mail claimed our first game would be held on June 27 and we were all like, DUDE! That's this weekend... half of us don't even have the jersey! Anyway, turns out our first game will not be held until July 11, so that's cool. The only thing that struck me as weird or silly was the name of our team

THE WHISTLEBLOWERS.


WHAT THE FUCK??

Well, I mean, in a way it does make sense. Our main product is called "AlertLine" which is a line where employees of many global companies report their workplace concerns. In other words, they snitch out their coworkers and supervisors if they are doing something that is illegal or not within the constraints of that company's policy. Hence, the line is referred to as a whistleblower line or whistleblower program... anybody lost? click on the link and find out what the hell I'm talking about. Anyway, I've always felt that whistleblower had a big of a negative connotation to it... don't you think? I mean, that's like calling your like sibling a "taddle"... you know? Like when that retarded little girl with the pigtails in the Brady Bunch would taddle the psychopath middle sister and then the gay dad and the lesbian mom would say it was wrong to to "taddle"... to me, whistleblower has that same retardedness to it... but hey, I am officially a WHISTLEBLOWER!!!
GOD, HAVE MERCY!!!!!



In other, unrelated news, I stumbled upon the best, time-wasting, mind-numbing little "game". It's not really a game since there is not winning or losing, I can't exactly explain what it is, but it soooooooo cool. It is called FLY GUY, check it out, you won't regret it.

And finally, the Wednesday Whatevers.


1. Do you wear your seatbelt?
Evertime, I feel uncomfortable if I don't

2. When do / did you graduate high school?
I graduated high school in 1993... I know I am old... shut up!

3. How often do you get mail?
Daily, mostly bills and junk mail.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

New lay out



UPDATE.

I can't seem to bring my post up to the top of the page... anybody has any ideas on how to solve this?


Well, as you can obviously see, I changed the lay out of my blog. Simply because trying to fix some HTML quirks on the mermaid one I ruined everything and I was too lazy to start from scratch. This one is one of the ones Blogger presets for it's users and I didn't think it was that bad so I used it. I don't plan on modifying it too much (at least not anytime soon).

I want a picture of my entire family on the upper left hand side corner of the blog where there's currently a pic of me and Fabi. But I haven't taken any that we like.

Currently I have not internet at home so I can only access the internet at work or at my mom's house. It sucks though, I was soo used to it. I returned it cuz Earthlink was just not cutting it with the service... well, I shouldn't say Earthlink since Time Warner was the provider. Anyway, got tired of getting booted off line every 15 minutes so I disconnected. I also need to wipe my computer's hard drive clean. Aside form the pictures and the illicit music there's nothing of value there and I got fucked over with all the spyware shit flying around (mostly out of porno sites, lol).

I found a person who saw and reviewed the movie Go-Bots: War of the Rock Lords. But as opposed to me, he apparently didn't think it was that bad and found it rather enjoyable... I pity da fool! Actually, this person's reviews are awesome and hilarious.

check it out



The link for the Go-Bots review is

Go-Bots


I think that's it for today.


Monday, June 21, 2004

Almost a month

Wow, it's been almost a month since I updated my blog. Honestly I just lost interest in writing in it. I don't know why...

Anyway, I will try to update it and see if I can re-spark interest in this pointless dribble. Because it is, just pointless dribble... lol. There's no way in hell I will recap everything that happened the last month in my life because I am too lazy. So I will just start this weekend or maybe point out a few things I've done.

A few weeks ago, me and Felicia went out again with Ryan and Jessica to their friend's Cuban club. The club is called Anexo and it's not really a club. It's just a guy playing Salsa/Merengue really loud in a restaurant after 10pm on Fridays. Anyway, the first time we went about a month ago it was in a different restaurant and a good amount of people showed up. This time, it was only us four and about 5 other people in the club. Although it was not boring, there wasn't anybody there. I was just glad me and Felicia were out together rather than me alone and that alone made the night worth while. At around midnight, James and his latest "victim" (LOL), this Colombian girl from the building we work in, showed up and began acting like five year olds cuz apparently they're too cool to listen or be in a Cuban club. Finally, after 15 excrutiatingly painful minutes of listening to a 28-years old bitch about the music in the club, we went to Sky. Sky was awesome and we had a good time, after they closed we tried to go to another club in SC that closed until 5 am but apparently it had closed down months earlier (Ibiza, if anybody remembers it). Since then, me and Felicia have been doing more things together in harmony so to speak.

This weekend, James and Elizabeth (his most dedicated and masochistic victim to date who is also my friend and coworker, lol), me and Felicia, Ryan and Jesicca, Dina (yet another one of James' victims) and a couple of other people from work were supposed to go to Tonic. Felicia didn't feel well so we ended up not going after a harsh night of arguing about Dina going to the damn thing. Ryan and Jessica, being indecisive I guess first called me and told me they were not going, then they called me from the club asking why we weren't there and then decided to go to Club 2000. Now, I've never been to that place, but all I've ever heard, and taking in consideration the caliber of the people from TWC that invited me when I was working there, I heard it is as ghetto as they come. I tried to find an address for the club online but all I found was the following review.
User Rating: Below Average

I think the classy people went uptown...

Posted by americaneagle1976 on 10/21/2002
The last time I went, I noticed that the atmosphere and clientele had gone WAY down. I was holding onto my wallet all evening so I would get pick-pocketed. I also don't see a logical reason for a dress code anymore, with the people they let in nowadays. Oh, and take off your jacket before you go in. They will tell you to take it off, and then stick you with a 2.00 charge to hang a coat. I missed my calling in life if that's how much you can make by moving 3 arm muscles to hang a stupid coat. And why do guys have to pay more than girls? Never did get that. I'll admit, Club 2000 wasn't always like this, and I hope they work on improving it soon, as I'd love to go back with friends to hang out and have a great time.

Pros: good parking
Cons: price, atmosphere


So they asked me to come but on top of the argument with Felicia, I can't say that Ludacris or the bling bling culture does much for me so I turned it down. Felicia and Jessica both want to go, so if I go, it would be when Felicia can come too. Come to find out, they didn't go either. So anyway, that night I ended up at home and since me and Felicia had gotten in a huge argument I went out and I bought her some flowers to appease the situation.

On Saturday, I went bowling with Gene and my moms. Unfortunately, Felicia was unable to come with me because she still felt ill. Even though I had a great time, I missed her because I...well, probably because I love her... LOL.

Now, the following day, Father's day (YAY!), it was awesome. Felicia got the coolest card... I will see if I can scan it. She also got me a baseball hat that read 1GR8FATHER inside a license plate and two shirts. I really wasn't expecting anything since our economic situation hasn't improved much since I was bitching about it last month. Anyway, that really made my day. Later that evening, we went to O'Charley's to eat and then to the Carnaval Carolina 2004. This carnival is aimed for the Hispanic population and they bring all these famous artists from their country of origin such as Inspector, Los Tucanes de Tijuana and Ana Barbara. The music didn't do much for me since of all the music they mentioned, I only mildly like Inspector since they have a lot of Ska influences but the atmosphere.... aaaahhhh, the atmosphere does take me back to my home town. The smell of freshly fried Churros, the hoards of tackily dressed Mexican cowboys and outdated rocker wannabes, the taqueros selling you their grease drenched beef and pork tacos, the tortas (Mexican subs), and then the other cultures that resemble that of mine such as The Salvadorians selling pupusas, the Puerto Ricans and their ropa vieja dish, Peruvians and their ceviche, the smells, the sounds, the vibe, the hearbeat of thousands of people who love their culture and it's vivid characters, yet they are so far away from it that this oasis of melancholy wakes up our patriotism and roots. You don't get that feeling when you spend 3/4 of your life in Ballantyne, you know?

Now, for the highlight of my life in the past month. On the weekend of June 12, while me and Gene mindlessly channel surfed for several hours in a row, we stumbled upon, what I now consider the WORST MOVIE OF ALL TIMES!. We, through what I can only attribute to hellspawn intervention, saw in its entirety Go-Bots: War of the Rock Lords.



Now, for those unfamiliar with the GoBots, they were sort of like the Transformers' retarded cousins. They had a similar story, similar toys, and a similar cartoon show, but the Transformers, by the opinion of just about everyone on the planet, was the far superior of the two series. Now, many people assume that Tonka's GoBots were indeed a ripoff of their Hasbro-made cousins The Transformers, but that's the farthest thing from the truth. Both series were based on pre-existing toys from Japan. The GoBots were based on Bandai's Machine Robo line, while the Transformers were culled from Takara's Diaclone and Microman toy lines. In fact, Gobots were the first to arrive in North America, beating their eventual defeaters into stores by several months. I remember having easily a dozen or so GoBots before the Transformers came along, starting sometime in the spring of 1984, while I didn't get my first Transformers until Christmas of that same year. What a truly great time it was to be a kid in the 1980's. Not one, but two lines of toys that changed from robots to vehicles. I've mentioned this before, but for me, that was like a toy Valhalla. Anyway, on to the movie itself. GOBOTS: WAR OF THE ROCK LORDS, clocks in at a mere 74 minutes. That's probably a good thing, because lord knows I couldn't take much more, and I was a fan of these suckers back in the day. The film starts off with a title sequence, featuring some of the most suck-ass theme music I've ever heard. They shine the spotlight on our big stars and drop the celebrity names. There's Margot Kidder as Solitaire, who changes from gem to robot. And Roddy McDowall as Nugget, who changes from gold nugget to robot. And Telly Savalas as Magmar, who changes, believe it or not, from volcanic rock to robot. Pretty simple stuff, folks. These are the Rock Lords, and they're the reason this movie exists. They're basically a gimmick, a spinoff if you will, to boost sales for a declining toy line. I know as a kid I wasn't content with planes and tanks and race cars, so I was all like bring out the robots that turn in to inanimate objects! Yeah, there's a whole world of fun that comes from Rock Lords. It's like the Pet Rock, but with a twist.

The action begins as we meet our Guardian GoBots: Leader-1, Turbo, Scooter, Small Foot, and others, along with the inevitable stupid-human sidekicks Matt, Nick, and AJ. Matt was kind of a father figure, and the other two were kids. With names like Nick and AJ, they remind me of the brothers from Simon & Simon, except slightly different. I just wished I'd have remembered the names Rick and AJ when I got asked that question at trivia one night. Anyway, I digress. There's a ton of Guardian robots here, and I guess the filmmakers just assume everyone's familiar with them already, because nary a one gets any character development whatsoever. At least in TRANSFORMERS: THE MOVIE the action focused almost exclusively around brand new characters that were at least introduced to us in the film's first act. Not that we should use that as a barometer for how films should be made, but I'm just sayin'. The Guardians meet the Rock Lords. Or at least Nugget and Solitaire. Solitaire tells them of their plight on their planet and how the evil Magmar (yes, there is a Pokemon named after him) is doing all kinds of nasty evil things and of course the good GoBots are going to help. Of course, the Renegade GoBots catch wind of all this, and make sure to interfere. That's really your plot. For the next 65 minutes or so, this movie launches into this clusterfuck of action sequences and really lame jokes and puns about rocks and doesn't really do much to entertain. I really started getting really bored really quick and started counting the times Nugget's faceplace fell down or he fell over. I would have turned it into a drinking game, but I'm still deciding whether or not I ever want to drink again. There's some spaceships flying through asteroid fields and evil leaders vying for power and lots of robot-on-robot violence that you've seen a hundred times before. Really, to be honest, there's not much of note here. In other words, GOBOTS: WAR OF THE ROCK LORDS is a bad movie. Only see it if -- well, don't see it. Let me say I've done my public service by deterring you. But if you do insist on it, you can usually find a cheap used copy from Amazon.com. Just don't come blaming me when your viewing of it cuts into your swing-jumping time.

Ok, this is probably the longest post I've ever done.

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